The Reason Behind My Cold Night

Dr.Mah:

Tonight will be a cold night indeed. Normally I would like to be left alone today, but since everything in my life has been in a rush, what with midterm and Thanksgiving dinners I decided to prolong my night of sorrow. See there are two days in the year where I just want to be left alone with my thoughts. I promised my friends that I wouldnt think about/stress myself over her nor should I be sad about him, and I try not to, but for two days in the year I just want to be left alone with my thoughts.

I'm thinking about re-engraving my Alchemy Pocket Watch to say "Dont Forget 7/15/10" *June/October 15/7* I understand it's really pathetic that I still count the days, but oh well, let me worry about that, noone else.

Shawn and Felix are coming back tomorrow so I'm quite excited to have dinner with them. After Dinner we plan to roast a pig, but not for too long. I have to wake up early tomorrow, Gonna visit my gramps. When Uni started I really didnt think much about visiting,and I've felt so guilty about that. But I have to get up early, around 7ish, or 8ish, on the count that Derek is coming down to chill tomorrow.
I'm gonna start studying soon.. ugh not tonight, I'm feeling sick and my head is going to blow. Luckly I read ahead, so when I miss this day of reading I'll be on track instead of ahead now. Now for the song, for new readers out there, I know there are some, This is a my 1st song that I've ever written.

[No comment for this post, this post is just for me and me only. And No I dont want to dicuss this post, and yes I will like it if we never talk about it/bring it up...But why advertise it on my msn name? This post is for me, but the song is for everyone. Enjoy and God bless all]

Cold Night:

Do you remember... When I would walk you home..?
I remember... Cuz we were all alone..

It was November.. and I was loving life
It was December... and I remeber I called you wife...
Now I sit here sad and all alone
Wondering where you are...
Wondering if I should pick up the phone..
But the words escape so fast
And all I do is live.. right in the past

It's a cold night without you love
And it feels like I've had enough
Because life without you
Is like life without..

It's a cold night without you love
And it feels like I've had enough
Because life without you
Is like... life without..

We were together until that faithful day
When I just had something truely stupid to say
When you left me I didnt believe you were gone
When you left me I found out I was wrong..

I'm sorry, but I didn't know what to do
When a close one is dying infront of you
But I can see that you're happier now
And all I can do is just smile some how

It's a cold night without you love
And it feels like I've had enough
Because in your heart is where I call home
And without you love I feel so alone

It's a cold night without you love
And it feels like I've had enough
Because in your heart is where I call home
And without you love I feel so alone

I was hurt one day.. I took a pretty bad fall
All I wanted that night.. was for you to call
But I never blamed you... I didnt care
I know that you're happy... And all I can do is bare...
So before I go..I just want you to know
That if you ever need me... You'll know where to go...

It's a cold night without you love
And it feels like I've had enough
Because life without you
Is like... life without..

It's a cold night without you love
And it feels like I've had enough
Because in your heart is where I call home
And without you love I feel so alone

It's a cold night without you love
And it feels like I've had enough
All I do is shiver...
Without you love...I quiver...

-13.W