What is a boy to do...

Dr.Mah,

Over the past two days I wasn't able to come online since I had a bio test to start studying.. but now that I have time.. wow.. The comments from my most recent post seemed to change everything. People I haven't talked to for months come out of no where... and people that I often talk to leave. What is a boy to do.

Apologize? For what.. for being myself? And I did apologize, and it didnt seem to go off that well...

Admit my faults? I think I've done that enough and yet it comes back and bits me in the ass...

So what else should I do? I really dont know. Stop moping around, stop being so down.. I really did stop that by doing my work. And Work is what is keeping me sane, ironic as that sounds.

So what is a boy to do? I really lost all ideas. I tried explaining my actions.. found out that I was wrong so I apologized.. then I was wrong for apologizing.. I was declared patheic for doing so?... I really don't get what the fuck is going on. Come on Red, Kings, Shawn.. you guys are smart. Come on Jabo, you have a positive look on life. Come on Felix, Nis, Krishna, you guys seem to know how to have a good time. And no.. I'm really not being scarastic... What should I do.. I really dont get it. Is there a hidden msg?.. But I rahter not look at those comments again.
And wasn't my blog for me to rant?...BLAH.. I have no clue anymore honestly
I was told to stop complaining.. I did.. the time I stop talking to all of you was the time I stop complaining. this seems like a 'you're damned if you do, and you're damned if you dont' situation... soo all I can do is BLAH it... and see what the next couple of weeks hold.



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Recap on my week:

So on on Friday I had this bio test to do.... which I spend liek 2 days, 5hrs each on the cheat sheet and I'm pretty proud of it. And I found the test pretty ok.. I cant be as bad as the second one.. haha.. dear god I hope it cant. So in the morning I had to skip calculus in order to study, and I saw jess there. And we started to study together, then later on Jess kept on saying how hungry she was, so in order to shut her up, we went to get some breakfest.. After 1st period, I wanted to sign in, but the secra. said that she was going on a break.. It was like 10am T________T why does she need a break?!... BlAh.. so I just went straight to english class where we had to write an in class essay about Hamlet, the movie we watched. So after that was lunch where me, wilson, suganth, and Billy (aka: Stacy, aka: BYD, aka: Lemon<-- haha best line ever) studied at the lib. Wilson was doing his cheat sheet, HA I TOLD YOU TO DRAW THE PENIS ON IT, so yea.. Wilson had drawn the structure of the penis, and after that he said : " Man.. thats the worse picture of a penis I've ever drawn" We all laughed after.. best line ever. After that was Physics .. and Jo did some puzzle that took her like 1 min to do, Nis: 30 mins.. and I have yet to complete the puzzle, haha. Bio was next and I was all ready for this shizzle. I scarafice all my time and effort for this.. so I can afford to get a low mark. Needless to say I feel pretty confident about that test. After school was work.. fuck I should quit, but I just got paid... so the temptations of work is back. So yea I was suppose to work from 4-11.. but then my manager had to run out for something so me and my sis had to watch the shop.. so I end up staying till like 12... BLAH.. but after I closed my manager didnt come yet, so I was forced to just sit there. I sat in one of the tables in the dinning rm and was listening to my MD. I turned the random on and the very 1st song was 'Everytime' by Britney spears.. I adore that song... So here it is...

I'm pretty excited for tomorrow... I'm doing interviews and hopfully I get to see 'her'.. *crosses fingers* heres one hoping

*Insert lyrics of Britney spears song here*