Holy Flirking Schnit...

So yesterday I went to the Jimmy Eat World concert...and it was fucking awesome...I went with David and Jeannie...and in the beginning the opening bands were aight..The High Speed Scene sucked total ass, then Gratitude played and I actually enjoyed them...the lead singer (Jonah) likes to gyrate his hips alot, looked like he was grinding the mic stand, which was so awesome, haha...

..At any rate...THEN, Jimmy Eat World came on the stage, and all at once everybody started pushing up towards the stage and it was CROWDED like nothing else...lol...David and Jeannie and I started pushing our way up to the front, but David lost us, so it was me and Jeannie for a bit, in the middle of the freaking mosh pit, haha...everybody jumping up and down pushing each other around...lol...it was fuckin awesome...everybody was so packed together that you had to like, look up, to breath fresh air...after a bit, Jeannie got exhausted, and she said she wanted out...so I screamed to this guy beside us..."Yo, she wants up"...then she screams.."Okay what do I do!"...the guy screams "Just go up"...haha...so he lifted her up and she crowd surfed her way to the front, and out of the pit..so then it was just me in there for a bit, David was like on the other side of place by now...and then after a few more songs..I screamed to the guy.."Yo send me up!"...so I went up and crowd surfed...and damn that shit is awesome..I mean they DID drop me, haha, I was like 3ft off the ground and I scream out.."OKAY PUT ME DOWN!"....they do...then I scream.."ALRIGHT NOW PUT ME UP!"...haha...so I went up again and surfed my way to the front, and out of the pit...then I had to make my way all the way to the back...and slowly, but surely, I made my way to the pit again...and there was David...so I PUSHED my way towards him, haha, and I was like.."DAVID!"...he's like.."SHAWN!"...and it was gross..lol...each us were drenched in like 50 other ppl's sweat...so me and him rocked out while Jimmy Eat World played a few more songs...then for the encore they played Pain...and everybody went fucking nuts!...nothing but non-stop pushing.... near the end of the song I crowd surfed my way out of there again...it was a better experience the second time...1) cause I think I booted sumguy in the side of the head...and 2) I didnt get dropped....

In the beginning, when Jimmy Eat World first started playing, sum guy was crowd surfing and he fucking booted me in the eye...hurt like a bitch...haha...

When they were done...oh dear god...I met up with David and Jeannie..and ALL OF US...drenched in other ppl's sweat...it was so gross...the sweat evaporated and condensed on the ceiling and was dripping down..lol...disgusting...we went back outside...and good god we were all so tired...David got himself and I a coke...greatest fucking coke ever...haha...

When I got home I showered...and then I went to sleep...

The Aftermath: I woke up sore all over...and I have a sore throat...which kills...and not to mention, my eye is sore....*shakes fist at concert go-er who booted him in the eye"...

Today: Im goin to see incredible

Tomorrow: IM GOIN TO SEE AMY....god damn it I miss her...it's been too long...but then again...I say that everyweek....but then again...its true...it really has been too long...but when tomorrow rolls around, Im going to hug her, and kiss her, and then never let her go...

Cheers all,

- Shawnathan

A Song Dedicated To Her

A Song Dedicated To Her
By:SM

It was June.. And I was all alone
It was August.. I just want the phone
To call you up, to see if you're alright
It was June.. And it was that traget night
When someone you love leaves you
When someone you always looked up to
I'm sorry I was such a child
But tell..tell..

Tell me, Tell me...
Tell me how it feels to be left all alone...
When nothing is right, when everything is wrong
Tell me how it feels to cry, when noone is watching...
To die, when everything is wrong...
To lie, on the bed side with a love one gone
Do you know how it feels to be alone?

I sometimes wish that someone would die infront of you
And then you'll just understand what I've been through
Or have ex's best freind to tell to you kill yourself
Maybe you'll have nightmares as well in the dark 'Cold Night'
Maybe have someone break your heart time and time again
And then you'll know how it feels to to lose your best friend
How about having your best friend turn his back on you
Leaving you all alone standing like a fool
So tell me...tell me..

Tell me, Tell me...
Tell me how it feels to be left all alone...
When nothing is right, when everything is wrong
Tell me how it feels to cry, when noone is watching...
To die, when everything is wrong...
To lie, on the bed side with a love one gone
Do you know how it feels to be alone?

How does it feel to be stabbed in the back
This is not lie it's just a plain just a fact
That life is a bitch
And it happens like this
So I fall to pieces when you're gone
When what I did was nothing wrong
You'd do the same if you were me
But some how you just couldn't see
The blindfold your friends place over our eyes
They tell you that I'm just a wrong guy
But what what do your friends know?
Do they know it feels?
So tell me that now
So tell me that now...

Tell me, Tell me...
Tell me how it feels to be left all alone...
When nothing is right, when everything is wrong
Tell me how it feels to cry, when noone is watching...
To die, when everything is wrong...
To lie, on the bed side with a love one gone
Do you know how it feels to be alone?

So Love Me When I'm Gone

Love Me When I'm Gone - Threes doors down, damn good song I must admit

Dr.Mah:

*** This Blog will be all over the place, so try to keep up***

Its been a week since I've blogged, that's cuz I've just been tired/lazy, whichever you prefer..

So where should I start out..Well to be honest, I cant start off anywhere.. My whole week has been a blur to me, This feeeling of forgetfulness is been happening for a while now, Am i secretly surpressing my emotions? Perhaspe. But its quite scary that I'm losing my memory as the day goes by. I tried to test it out by looking at the yr book, naming people I know.. and I couldnt think of 30,40%? of the people, and yet those are the people I say 'Hi' to everday, or stop by and make chit chat with them. All I remember now are the bad stuff that has happened in the past week, maybe only bad stuff has happened in the week. People breaking up with each other, people getting low marks (mainly me), tears <-- not me, but family/friends , insomia.. all the stuff. Finding out that a person I knew since I was fairly young started doing drugs..seeing a couple making dirty love in pizza hut.. (two customers of course) Partically eating myself to death, Pushing my brain to my limit..well not really.. Almost having an episode during work, which..that I really didnt see coming... What else?.. I pulled a redford and smashed a coconut today, it was an empty feeling when I did so.. I dont know why.

During work last night I was suppose to work from 6-10, but ended up closing (12:18am) for a friend, for a couple reasons: I was in no mood to come home to study, nothing to go home for, Julie was closing as well, More money, and to get my pizza for Mr.Mac, I hope he enjoys it. Today is as boring as any other day really, woke up at around 1:30, made lunch, then started studying at 2:30 till 4..(not a very impressive time frame, but it will due for now)and here we are. I came down to my comp just to listen to two songs that was in my head for the longest time, Naruto's New ending theme song as well as Thursday - Stadning on the edge of summer. I came on and my comp was so damn laggy,mainly because I was dling 2gigs of Naruto -Have to watch the old eps to understand the manga, so I ended up waiting for 30 mins, which was my time peroid in which I planned to take a break.

So i got my marks back and they were fairly shit.. In chem I talked to Ms.Andersen about my mark and she told me how disappointed she was. It was a bitter/sweet remark, on the plus side, She expects more from me, which means she thinks highly of me.On the con side.. shes disappointed at me.. I let her down..

Calc mark is very.. its not an accqurate mark, if you may. Because Hellsten (my calc teacher) agreeed to change it (rise it) if i completely own up wed/thur's quiz, which means after this blog I will be studying hard

Food: I got 97

And Drama, I am expecting fairly high, high 80's, low- mid 90s? Not so sure
And for drama, our ISU project is for us to do some play writting, in which I love doing. I've given up on my 'Girl Next door' Project mainly because I have no passion for it anymore. It was based on a girl I knew, but since I dont have anymore emotioal attachment to her, then the play is meaningless. Unless shawn wants me to continue writting this play, which I dont REALLY mind doing so. I'm more into songs now, it's more easy to write, and the emotions there is more raw. FYI, check out the Blog Entry 'Cold Night' That was my first song I wrote and a couple of.. surprisingly enough, liked it. Names Include: Big Simon, Felix, Amy (I think), and Shawn... though sometimes they're just humoring me

Well this Blog seems long enough..I'm fairly confident it's not as long as the last blog I entered last week.. Word count: 2.7K (last week)

And for Simon, Your name is in the last paragraph so you'll want that.. and the summary of this blog.. My week has been shit and it doesnt look any good from here on out