Who blogs anymore? (Yet another Random Blog)

Dr.Mah,
"Small, simple, safe price Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals And I am not afraid to die I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight. I want the pain of payment What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks Would you be my little cut? Would you be my thousand fucks? And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart Love is not like anything Especially a fucking knife"
(Just alittle scary eh...=\)

The Blog: I think its offical that Dr.Mah has taken over this blog =) but it seriously doesnt matter because who blogs anymore? Besides Krishna and such, no one really has the time to sit down and think about what to write about.I might as well change my layout now, so shawn can blog as well..The past couple of weeks have been yet a blur.. it seriously have, I need to get new glasses T.T.

The School: So calsses have been fairly ok and manageable, might I mind you that I have 4 of the hardest courses a person can get (Phys, Calc, Eng, Bio), not to say that other courses arent hard, just my combination is deadly...So a couple days ago was Mr.Mac's B-day. No one knew, I really would not have figured it out if Ms.Borch didnt tell me. So I told shawn and, well, we felt bad for not getting him anything, so during lunch we went to food basic and we bought too packs of the fattest ass bacon alive. It was soo awesome.

The Hospital: Good news came to me.. I won this award apparently and I will be attending this dinner party to recieve it. What can I say, I'm jumping in joy...not really. It seems like I dont deserve such an award, I didnt do much.. I dont know.. But sometimes I think to myself that the only reason I feel like this is because I'm truely afraid to be happy, but I'll dwell on that later. So I did some informational meetings about volunteering in the hospital for a couple days now. I think they went alright..

The shot: A couple days ago.. more like yesterday.. the men. shot came to school and starting giving out free vacsanations.. blah. damn spelling.. and Everygrade had a chance to get one.. if you were smart enough to get one. So when I went, I went with Jo, Wilson, and Nis, My true Homie G's. Jo, being the wuss! she was, was damn afraid to get her shot, I had to hold her hand when she was getting it... when I was getting mine, I heard the biggest 'pop' following my arm going damn limp. After a couple seconds I got control of my arm again, but for that snap second it was quite a scary situation. Could one of my veins pop =\, not pop, most likely collapse =(.

The Used: I was a little down a couple weeks ago and Dengy knew this. He didnt know what to say I suppose so he just sent me a song. It was 'All I've got' by The Used. After hearing it once, I was hooked. The used is now one of my favourtie bands.A week after, I just dled the whole album. Everysong in it is amazing, from 'I'm a fake' to 'I caught Fire'.. Best album I've heard ever. The Used - In Love and Death, I strongly suggest everyone to check it out, I'm gonna buy it soon.

The Depression: Websters Dictionary defines depression as 'Simon Mah' Hey look, theres even a pic of me on it. Well heres the situation. Have you ever had fun and then in the middle of your fun, you think to yourself that
i) You dont deserve this fun
ii) You know fun and joy never last forever and
iii) wtf are you having fun for?!, you have a University to try to get in to!.
Well, most normal people wouldnt think about things like these, but thoughts like that RACE my head in and out every nanosecond of my life. Not to sound like a downer, but has anyone really considered that things like joy, and happiness never last forever? Maybe I'm being alittle dramatic, but then again, dont judge me if you dont know me. And dont use my name in blogs in such a negative way =) I stopped, so you should as well sir... Becauase whatever anyone thinks of me, its throuoghly predictable. (yup, not much of a speller). Watch 'A Walk to Remember' =P, you'll know what I mean.

The Organization: So I was given an organization (Breast Cancer) to run, yay me, but sadly enough I havent had much time to put any effort in it. I'll give it 2 more weeks, and if I cant keep up with it then I'll have to drop that dream... but I will put my best efforts in running it.

The New year: This is now the year of the Chicken, and sadly enough, to all my rabbit friends.. this is prehaspe predicted to be one of the worse years we will get. And the scary part is that we're trying to get into uni this year, well most of us, others might stay or collage, but that doesnt matter, its the fact that its gonna be a horrible year. BUT!! theres still hopes to all my brothers and sisters that are going to a uni where you have to move out, because the sign states that most of us will be taking long trips in the middle of the year, so thats wicked for most of our notes.
The 5 types of Rabbit (Birthdate - Type):
01/29/1903 to 02/15/1904 - WATER; 02/14/1915 to 02/02/1916 - WOOD
02/02/1927 to 01/22/1928 - FIRE; 02/19/1939 to 02/07/1940 - EARTH
02/06/1951 to 01/26/1952 - METAL; 01/25/1963 to 02/12/1964 - WATER
02/11/1975 to 01/30/1976 - WOOD; 01/29/1987 to 02/16/1988 - FIRE
02/16/1999 to 02/04/2000 - EARTH; 02/03/2011 to 01/22/2012 - METAL
Rabbit Overview
Rabbits will congratulate themselves on feeling perfectly in their element. The New Year will bring them a pleasurable sensation of physical and mental well-being. Sufficiently wise not to make a drama out of every grain of sand, they will close their eyes on the faults of their close ones and will thus preserve their interior peace. The astral environment of this year will incite Rabbits to devote more hours to reading. They will therefore gain more wisdom, for 'the reading of all good books is like a conversation with the best people of past centuries,' as Descartes wrote. Meditation will also please them.
First quarter

Your sentimental relations will improve because you will be more disposed than usual to draw in your horns. You'll be less finicky, you'll show a level of tolerance that your loved ones didn't think you were capable of -- in short, you'll be easier to live with. Avoid mixing logic with your love affairs. Just relax, take life as it comes and profit thoroughly from the present moment. If you're still free at heart, March may reserve for you an exceptional encounter. This time you won't even try to reason or put that person to numerous tests before judging them worthy of you -- they will be accepted without any formality!

Second quarter

Probably one of your former mates will try to renew contacts with you, but their repentance may not be quite sincere and your mutual contention may not be resolved. For this reason remain on your guard! Single natives, you'll have the right to many loves at first sight throughout this period. You'll feel sure and certain to have finally found the rare bird. However, try to keep cool; just live in the present as best as you can and wait to see how things will turn out.

Third quarter

It's virtually certain that your neighbors will be disturbed by the din that your love life will produce. Your walls will vibrate! An excess of passion will be the cause of all this, but try to watch out that passion does not turn into jealousy! Control yourself and keep a sense of humor. August and September will be extremely favorable to a new amorous start. You can definitely cut off your past relations or, more simply, do away with the dust covering a long-lasting relation. You'll feel liberated and quite prepared to start afresh with a partner of your choice.

Fourth quarter

If you're already living in couple, this period should permit you to get closer to your mate or partner. Many of you will come out of a delicate period that was marked with some conflicts. Supported by the stars, you'll have no difficulty this time warming up the atmosphere. If you're single, you'll hardly burden yourself with romantic naivete at this time. What's important to you will be to experience sheer sensual pleasure. Use your charms wisely!


....what an ironic blog..

So to end it all in true Dr.Mah Fashion, here are all The Used Lyrics from 'In Love and Death'
* = really good songs, the more the stars the better
In Love And Death" (2004)

1)Take It Away **
2)I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes) ****
3)Let It Bleed ************
4)All That I've Got ********************
5)Cut Up Angels ****
6)Listening ******
8)Light With A Sharpened Edge ***
9)Sound Effects And Overdramatics ***
10)Hard To Say ******
11)Lunacy Fringe *********
12)I'm A Fake ******************************

"Take It Away"

Life's greatest questions have always been: Who am I? Where did I come from? Why am I here? Where am I going? You are about to see and hear one of the most significant messages given to us from God.

Get down
Wooooooo!
Get down

I'm lying to myself
And this dagger's my excuse
I'm a pawn
I Should have paid up
And I left an hour late
I was laid up

I must abuse myself
I'm against all that I've made up
Set in stone the sun will come
And I hate light
You know I hate light
To me it looks so pretty burning

Burn the sun
Burn the light
Take take take take take take it away
Take my hand
Take my life
Take take take take take take it away

I must have caught something
In the heat of all these dances
I'm a worm with no more chances
And I've lost all doubt
In a chemical romance

I can't stop itching
over thoughts of tarnished hope
kinda funny
lonely feeling
I'm not in love
You know it's not love
Don't make it look so pretty burning

Burn the sun
Burn the light
Take take take take take take it away
Take my hand
Take my life
Take take take take take take it away

Burn the sun
Burn the light
Take take take take take take it away
Take my hand
Take my life
Take take take take take take it away

Brothers and sisters
I'm right here with you
Cause everyone's got one
A story to kill me
I'm so apathetic in my resentment
Living, loving, knowing not

Take my hand [x8]
Take my life
Take my heart take my mind
Take my life take my life

Burn the sun burn the light
Take take take take take take it away
Take my hand take my life
Take take take take take take it away
Burn the sun burn the light
Take take take take take take it away
Take my hand take my life
Take my life
Take my life

"I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes)"

Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...
Hear your voice again
Could we dim the sun
And wonder where we've been
Maybe you and me
So kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin

(I'm melting, I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while

And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Now

Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
why cuts aren't healing
Learning how to love

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
(Stay with me lay with me now)

You could stay and watch me fall
And of course I'll ask for help
Just stay with me now
Take my hand
We could take our heads off
stay in bed just make love that's all
Just stay with me now

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting

In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me lay with me
(Stay with me, lay with me)

In your eyes
Lets sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes (I'm melting in your eyes)
Let's leave till the sun burns out

"Let It Bleed"

This poison's my intoxication
I broke the needle off in my skin
picked the scabs and picked the bleeding
and assumed that it was all in vain
A positive scab that's never healing
Calloused hit me in the face
A burning bridge that's so misleading
Poison's more potent now with the flame

Let it bleed
Take the red for what it's worth woah
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying you might wanna sing

The fire department couldn't drown the city
They didn't even try to wash it clean
And what did you think that I was sober?
Put me out cause I'm on fucking fire
A positive scab that's never healing
Regret that I kept this clean
The most that I can do for you is keep on lying
It's not a lie if you can let it sing

Let it bleed
Take the red for what it's worth woah
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying you might wanna sing!

Ohoh you might wanna sing
Ahaha you might wanna sing
Hahah you might wanna sing
Hahahaha sing!
You might wanna sing!
You might wanna sing!
You might wanna sing or scream at...

This poison's my intoxication
I broke the needle off in my skin
Picked the scabs and picked the bleeding
yeah assumed that it was all in vain

Let it bleed

Take the red for what it's worth, woah
Watch the fire
Mamma fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying
If you feel like dying
If you feel like dying, You might wanna sing
Hahaha You might wanna sing
Haha You might wanna sing
Ha you might wanna sing or scream at...
"All That I've Got"

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got

"Cut Up Angels"

If we cut out the bad
Well then we’d have nothing left
Like I cut up your mouth
The night I stuffed it all in
And you lied to the Angel
Said I stabbed you to death
If we go at the same time
They'll clean up the mess

I lost my head
You couldn’t come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun

Watched you bite into the bottle
Watched me kick out the chair
Let you chew up the glass
And laughed as you just hung there
I have thought of rose petals mostly perfect and pure
Then I thought of your petals
And the abuse they’ve been through

I lost my head
You couldn’t come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun
You lost your head
I couldn’t come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun
Whoa whoa

I told the angels
Cant stay in heaven
I asked the devil
If we cut out the bad well then we'd have nothing left
Like I cut up your angels
Yeah you stabbed me to death

I lost my head
You couldn’t come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun
You lost your head
I couldn’t come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun

"Listening"

Your skin attached this fragile cliche
Of my broken heart attack
You should swallow your teeth and hang out
Stay for a while
If your heart's still beating it must be the blood
If your lungs are still working it must be the mud
If its still light out than a kick in the ribs
today's worth living

I don't see anything now
So just say what you wanna say
It's kind of funny how I'm not listening anyway

Lights out, I can't stand to hear you scream
While we were making love I was fast asleep
and the night sky better give something up (give something up)

I don't see anything now
So just say what you wanna say
It's kind of funny how I'm not listening anyway
[x2]

Lights out, lights out, lights out, lights out...
Lights out! I can't stand to hear you scream
While we were making love I was fast asleep
If your heart's still beating it must be the blood
If your lungs are still working it must be the mud
If its still light out than a kick in the ribs
And today's worth living, it probably is

I don't see anything now
So just say what you wanna say
It's kind of funny how I'm not listening anyway
[x2]

I'm not listening anyway
I'm not listening anyway
I'm not listening

Listening, I'm not listening
I'm not listening
I'm not listening
I'm not listening


"Yesterday's Feelings"

Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where worries are washed out to sea
See the changes, people's faces blurred out
Like the sun spots or raindrops

Now all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind

Left the only worries I had in my hands
Away from the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how I feel
'Cause feelings mean nothing now

All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
(yeah today is on my mind)

Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart

Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where feelings mean nothing now

All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time (all be lost in time)
But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
for today is on my mind
yeah today is on my mind

Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart


Light With A Sharpened Edge"

Free from the torment of sin
All this I'm giving up
Much as the sun would decide to give in
Explode into orange
And hear all the voices sing praises with hymns
Mark the birth of a change
Free from the torment of sin
All this I'm giving up

It's not me
Buried wreckage my soul
It's not me so who am I now

Over and over again
Light with a sharpened edge
Cut through the black empty space we call sky
Beginning the cycle that stays
And I know in my heart we all die
Like the day and the night
Like the sun in the sky
All this I'm giving up

It's not me
Buried wreckage my soul
It's not me so who am I now?

Is there another side?
Beyond the black and the white
Place I could meet you by
A place on the other side
I'll let you know when I go
When I'm gone

It's not me
Buried wreckage my soul
It's not me so who am I now?


Sound Effects And Overdramatics"

When the shirt came off, it was all in time
When a m-m-m-minute turned into a mile
And then I broke that grin, and I cut it out
And you got all turned on by the taste of your sin
When I mention blue, all you thought was color
When you mention drugs, all I thought was sober
When your pants came off and I turned you over
When you mention blue

Kill! Smile! Cut it out for me this time!
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while

Keep the mask aligned
Get it up in time
There's a space between valleys
and try and catch a vibe
Make a circle square, a rectangle curve
Use a smile as a noun and I think like a verb
Run quick switch sides
Spill the filled up canister
And the room is shaking
Now you're changing places,
and I switched my pace,
and my breathing races when you mention blue

Kill! Smile! Cut it out for me this time!
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while
Kill! Smile! Cut it out for me this time! (This is not [x6])
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while
Kill, smile, cut out for me cut it cut it out
Smile, cut cut it out for me cut it cut it out
We cut it out!
Kill! Smile! Cut it out for me this time!
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while
Kill! Smile! Cut it out for me this time! (This is not [x6])
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while

Get down and stay awake
Smile

"Hard To Say"

The singer finished singing and she's walking out
The singer sheds a tear, her fear of falling out
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried

It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone, it's not the same

My worries weigh the world, how I used to be
And everything, I'm cold, seems a plague in me
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried

It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone, it's not the same
It's hard to say I held my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone, it's not the same

Worse than the fear it's the lie you told a thousand times before
Worse than a fear it's the knife
But it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried

It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone, it's not the same
It's hard to say I held my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone, I'm not the same
It's hard to say (God, it's hard to say)
Since you've been gone,
I'm not the same


"Lunacy Fringe"

Wake up
My love
Never thought you'd make me, break me
Now I'm up from below
Such a brilliant star you are
And will your love keep burning baby
Burn a hole right through my eyes
All these short times feel like no time
I thought you ought to know

I'm so far gone now I been running on empty
I'm so far gone now
Do you wanna take me on? [x2]

Do, Do you, Do you know?
Do you know how long I've waited?
To look up from below,
Just to find someone like you?
And will your love light burn me baby?
Burn a hole right through my heart
I think I might just trust you, maybe
But I'm not sure
I'm not sure I wanna know

I'm so far gone now I been running on empty
I'm so far gone now
Do you wanna take me on?

I'm so far gone now I been running on empty
I'm so far gone now
Do you wanna take me on? [x2]

Whoa Whoa Whoa Whoa
I think you could make me girl
Could make me and take my life
I know you could break me girl
Take all of me
All of me, yeah hey

Wake up
My love
Never thought you'd make me, break me
Now I'm up from below
Such a brilliant star you are

I'm so far gone now I been running on empty
I'm so far gone now
Do you wanna take me on?

I'm so far gone I been running on empty
I'm so far gone now
Do you wanna take me on? [x2]


"I'm A Fake"

[Spoken:]
Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife

Look at me, you can tell
By the way I move and do my hair
Do you think that it's me or it's not me?
I don't even care
I'm alive
I don't smell
I'm the cleanest I have ever been.
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry (dry)

[Chorus:]
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake [x4]
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake [x4]

Do I drink? Do I date?
I've got perfect placement all my ink
Satisfied, in your eyes
I'm the biggest fan I've got right now
I made sure, that I look how I wanted to look
The people around me, the people surround me
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry (dry)

[Chorus]

My stomach hurts now, and all tied off in lace
I pray, I beg for anything, to hit me in the face
and this sicknes isn't me, I pray to fall from grace
The last thing I see is feeling
And I'm telling you I'm a fake [x4]
And I'm telling you I'm...

[Chorus]