Well thats over....

Today marked a grand occasion...Im broke...yep...all that money I saved from the summer working at Pizza Hut...I mean...being OVERWORKED at Pizza Hut...is all gone...yep...completely gone...I have like a little less than 20 bucks in my bank account now....how did I come about this financial set back you ask?...

Well...it all starts when a nulecule comes out of its nest....

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Magic is where most of it has gone..and its the reason I am low on funds now...see I just spent 100 bucks on an illusion to close my show with called Floating Rose...here's a description of the effect..

A paper ball becomes animated on a spectator's arm! The ball twists into the shape of a rose, which then levitates! The rose is lit on fire and changes into a real rose for the spectator!!

..it was a choice between that...or..a floating silver ball...I opted for the rose cause its much more intimate...really touches the lady volunteer and the audience at the same time...

but yea...on a lighter note...I GOT MY BUSINESS CARDS...so I'm going to start making money eventually, haha...the cards look awesome...a big "aye thank you" goes out to Gajan and Amy for helping out in the designing process, and to Krishna for taking the photo of the S-fan...

on another opposite of light note..I ripped my burgandy close up mat, in a futile attempt to remove dust from it...*sigh*..good thing it was Nick's..haha..I still have my green one...*phew*...

I saw Phantom of the Opera today...I thought it was pretty good...I cant quite say for sure yet tho, cause I need to compare it to the actual theatrical performance...if they ever come back to T.O...I'm going...

I saw Amy yesterday...the day was too short tho...damned traffic jams...*sigh*...I watched the Copperfield dvd with her...thats like the 5th time I've seen it..its so wicked...and we watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind...it was a really good movie...I shed a very manly tear..haha...

I was up until like 5am last night, filming stuff with JJ for York...see York wanted me to send them something so they could see what I could do...and yea..it was pretty funny...in one of the effects, the Magic Colouring Book

Shawn: "your magic word could be anything..abra-cadabra..alakazam..york...anything you want..."
Jamil: "WATERLOO"
Shawn: "who said Waterloo...BAD...BAAAAAAAD" *points to self*..."Shameless...shaaameless"...

haha..we had a good chuckle...thanks for helpin me out JJ..and being my videographer and all...

well I guess thats all, Physics exam on thursday, Chem exam on the tuesday after....good times...

anyway...I've been having a problem lately...

I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT MAGIC...inventing it, reworking my original routines, incorporating new things into my routines...it haunts me I tells ya...

Cheers all,

- Shawnathan

Bait Out T.T

Life Goals...

I was watching a David Copperfield DVD today and it inspired me to write this blog...cause as I was watching him make the statue of liberty disappear, walk through the great wall of china, make a train vanish, make a plan vanish, transpose himself god knows how many times...I thought to myself..."that'll be me doin that one day"...and then I got thinkin about goals in general, not just goals in magic....so without further adew...I give you my life's goals (in no particular order)...


1) Make the C.N. Tower Disappear...piece...by piece...

This was inspired by Copperfield making the Statue of Liberty Disappear and this other stage effect where by a women is placed in a box, and its closed, and on the front of the box is a drawing of the woman, and he starts erasing body parts, and when the box is opened, that body part is missing on the woman...the way he made the statue vanish was ingenious...but...not very practical in this case considering the skydome is practically attached to the damn tower...but seeing as Toronto is my home town, Im gonna leave my mark here...so I'll figure something out...

2) Contribute many somethings to the Close-up Magic arsenal

I already have an idea, I just need to start bringing it into fruition...its a good idea...but it's gonna require a lot of work...need to sit down over the course of many days and just ponder about it...I'll get many more ideas in the future...all I need is the time to create them...maybe I should invest in clocks...so I can always have time...

3) Graduate from the System Design Engineering program at Waterloo

It's either that..or drop out and become a professional magician...right now I could go both ways on this...haha...its gonna be a long road getting from here to there...ppl dont sleep in that program...ppl arent ppl in that program...if I do drop out, you know Im on my way to attaining goal number 1....its a "go big or go home" situation...and since Im already home in Toronto, Ive gotta go big....

4) To live each day as if it were my last...

Some might think that you cant have that as a goal...well..Id like to see all of you try that...its not as easy as ud think...especially everyday...and it will take many years to condition myself to do this...

5) Make learning math fun...

So say I dont go down the professional magician path (but Im still gonna make the damn tower vanish), and I grow weary of engineering....well sirs and madames I plan to use my degree and do something that no other teacher before me has...make learning fucking high school math..FUN....make it a class worth going to...a class worth sitting through...and class worth the effort you would spend staying awake normally.....

6) Perform for Sick Kids Hospital

This was the original reason I started putting together a parlour/stage magic routine...and I've been procrastinating about it...but once exams are over...I am going to go to them, and ask them to perform for them...cause now I have experience...I have something to show them.."credentials", if u will...

7) Some day sit down and have a family...

Hey I could die before this happens, ya never know...but I would like to have some of my own littluns...shawn's littluns...I'd call them Shittluns...well...its a work in progress...

8) Stay close with everybody who means something to me right now...

Doesnt sound like much...but ull find a little can go a long way...and while this may seem like a little gesture...it means a lot to me...you know who u are...ur the closest things to family to me, other than my real family...and I meant it when I said that when it's all said and done, we'll ride off into the sunset together...

9) Never stop doing what I love doing...

...and that is...making people smile....


I think that's a pretty concise list...what do yall think...such is my life over the next..many...years....

Cheers All,

- Shawnathan

"Unlike Me, You're Not A Loser"

Unlike me, you're not a loser (A very organized blog)

Dr.Mah,

The Shoutout: Before I begin, I must wish Simon a Happy B-day... as well as Jimmy??..It was a couple days ago but I've been truely busy. And a well deserved standing ovation for Redford and Jimmy for their bio vid. I studied from 10 something till now, 1 somthing, and I thought I needed a break.

The Goal: What can I say.. Lifes a Bitch.. And Chem's her Master, as well as mine T.T. The day I move out is coming a near and I must admit I am nervous but excited as well. Now I'm not THAT confident about making to Western.. But I have dreams.. And I intend to chase them till the end, no matter what sacrafice I must make, no matter who I have to hurt, no matter who I need to leave behind...I dont want to sound bitter.. But it's just something I have to do. If you want something so bad in life, you must do things that you wouldnt imagine doing, or leave people that mean the most to you. In my case, My family and my best friends.

The Decision...:So during spare on Friday I went to McDonals with Shawn, Felix,and Nis. We saw Jenn and Kyle and we started talking.. after they left, We started to talk about University. I told the guys that after this year, I wont be coming back, I've been thinking about this for a while.. and my decision is to never come back. I may come back to visit family and friends, but nothing more... But this decision has yet to be determined: 1) I NEED to make it first, and 2) Can I really leave my family and friends so cold heartedly?

The Dream: So I've had many crappy dreams lately.. Not as shitty as Shawns Dreams.. But yea, so this is what happens in my dream.. I'm at a line up for something simple stuff.. food, paint.. watever.. And I find out that its sold out.. SO I GO CRAZY MAD.. I start throwing chairs and start swearing like a M.Fer. I'm so pissed that I start to tear up... and then the dream ends. I've had this dream a couple times before. 3 to be more exact.. but its always a different situation, it just ends up that way.. but I start to wonder.. what does this all mean..? Am I becoming the spoiled Kid I was in the past? So I went to No frills with Julie today.. Julie told me to pick anything I want before we pay.. And while I was walking to get my onion chips, I stop.. I start to remember my dreams and wonder.. If there isnt any onion chips.. will I freak out like I did in the dream...?

The asshole: I swear, I work with the biggest assholes alive. My manager wouldnt give me breaks, and does nothing but bully me.. I'm gonna get that ass in trouble *sigh* I told myself not to, I said that i'll let it slide, But then he starts bullying my friend.. and Now i'm pissed. He picks on me and Matt when we've done nothing wrong.. He tells us to do all this shit.. when we're in the middle of working. He doesnt give us breaks and only tells us to do the hard work because we're not brown. I dont want to sound racist or something like that, because I'm honestly not. But all the black, chinese, white workers get the most shit from him.. And he just laughs it off with his Tamil friends... Ask Shawn...

The Musical: Its doing good

The Thing I call life: Man.. I hate life..=(.. Grad pic is coming up.. and I have an eye infection.. seriously ...WTF!!! its soo swollen.. its HUGE!!! I've been through enough.. Wilson,Shawn and Jj would know that the past couple of weeks have not been great for me. Scared to go home.. (hmm you wonder why).. And I'm seriously green with envy for those who have it good now. I apologize but I can't help it. You TRY to be a good person, YOU TRY to be nice, but it gets you nothing. You work harder then others and yet they become more successful then you are. YOU TRY to put your trust in others, and yet it gives you nothing but heartache. You TRY to help others out.. but when the tables have turned.. where are they.. You TRY to express your emotions freely and get yelled for doing so. You TRY SO HARD to be happy, but to achive that you have to be miserable...(shawn knows what i'm talking about).. I may sound alittle melodramatic.. but seriously.. my life these past months have been nothing but shit. I just hope that things will change for once and everything I TRY to do will be worth it.

The Anime: Jabo you suck, Neji rules... Love you too =P

The Hair: I decided to cut my hair last Sunday and it was alright. I didnt fully get it the way I wanted it, but I'll take what I can get. I will say this the last time... MY HAIR IS NOT PURPLE!!!!! GAH. ITS DARK RED...!!!.. AS well.. I SHAVED FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!! w00t w00t.. HURRAY FOR ME..I wasnt really hairy, but since my grade pic was coming up, I thought I should look some what clean.

The Week: Boring..stressful..hurtful..so..normal

The Present: So here I sit writing this blog.. watching this TVB show with my one working eye...The show is called " Armed Reaction" it seems very interesting.. but its kind of funny. See in this episode, theres a car chase, and it didnt look too bad, it looked like they were going really fast, when when you look at the background, you see people walking REALLY REALLY fast.. which means only one thing... it means that that clip has been fast forwarded and it wasnt really a fast cra chase to begin with...Getting ready to study again, But i'm kind of tired.

The Song:

Nissay Pooh

Ohhhh get well nissay pooh, please get well now
I dont know what you did, but you'll do it some-ome how
Get well Nissay pooh its all up to youuuuuu
Dont just sit around and act like a true fool

LETS DOO IT NISSAY POOH
OOHH YEA ITS UP TO YOU
NISSAY POOH I KNOW THAT YOU WILL SURVERY
THAT EAR INFECTION OF YOURS WILL SUU - OON DIE
..............................................
REMIXXXXXXXX

Nissay pooh its up to you
You can do it you'll make it through
The virus is nothing to fear
So dont be sad and shed a tear
You tamil and your brown
You'll make it some how
Com'n niggs dont just sit down
Get up you bum and start to eat
I dont care if You cant eat meat
Your diarrea wont never last
Just be sure to clean that ass
I know your strong,so you'll make it through
Lets GO LETS GO KIN KAZOOO!!

LETS DOO IT NISSAY POOH
OOHH YEA ITS UP TO YOU
NISSAY POOH I KNOW THAT YOU WILL SURVERY
THAT EAR INFECTION OF YOURS WILL SUU - OON DIE


Nissay pooh this song is DECATIED TO YOU!!
LETS GO, YOU CAN DO IT , You'll make it through
OHHHHHHHHH oHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OHHHHHHHHHHH oHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
YOU CAN DO IT, YOU CAN DO IT....
OOOOOOOOOOOH OOOOOOOOOOOOOOH OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH
YOU CAN DO IT, YOU CAN DO IT....!
- 13.W/S.M


The End