Friends...

I have friends...big deal...everybody does, but some of my friends are special...see they don't realize how special they are. In fact they are completely indifferent to that fact and go about thier day as normal, with no regard for me. That really would be the normal day. I'd lucky if I heard a word from any of these people now. Simply because life is about effort, and if you're happy with what you got, why bother with the rest. They go about thier days as normal, not realizing that every word, or lack thereof, is another shot at me. It's another sign saying how different everything has become, and how I don't belong anymore. It's another reason for me to beleive that I really have been removed. How I don't fit into the crowd I use to fit into. I'm a puzzle piece, and sure I fit in with the rest of the puzzle...but I'm...Aladdin..and they are...The Little Mermaid...it'll never work. And I foresee no effort on anybody's part to do anything about it...simply because you are all happy with the way things are...and too wrapped up in your own god damn lives, with it's comfort and security and unchanging scenary..life is easier when you accept things for the way they are...and if I meant half as much to you as you do to me, there would be less silence...less crippling silence...

Stop being ignorant...

- Shawnathan

...sing it Aretha...R E....m o v e d...

This is what happens when you spend your entire life chasing after 1 thing...


- Shawnathan