Dreams...

We all have dreams don't we...I just never wanna be one of those people that doesnt follow them....cause I beleive that if you want something bad enough, it you put your blood, sweat and tears into it, then you'll get it...

What's your dream?...Whats the one thing you'd like to do before you die, before you cant anymore, before time runs out...

- Shawnathan

Been a long time...

Well ladies and gentlemen...here I am again, now that Butters changed the blog layour back to something we both agree on, instead of making it decidely his...anywhoo..I dont really have much to say, other than...

Im beginning to care less and less about school...

Magic is doing great...I got my folding table, and cloth that is draped over it...I learned the veritable greatest card trick of the century...Galaxy (Out of this World)..and on top of all of that...I have 2 shows coming up...1 at York University, and another at Bethune C.I....both are 1 hour in length...AND, on the day after the York show, which is Feb 24th, I will be doing magic for 2 hours at Campbell at the Tsunami Releif Show: Roots and Rythems...Ill be handing out business cards etc...and photographers from various papers will be there, so maybe Ill steal the show, haha...*crosses fingers*...any publicity is good publicity...

Im still playing telephone tag with sick kids hospital...you know sick kids right folks, the reason I actually started this in the first place...

Im goin to see Amy tmr..

Im goin to the magic shop on saturday morning, to see a professional magician and one of my favourties, Jay Sankey...and Im going there to ask him 1 single question..."What advice would you give someone who is willing to dedicate their life to magic?"...cause you see after I get my engineering degree (or even before, you never know) Im going to dedicate my life to magic...

- Shawnathan

Why Am I so stupid?

Dr.Mah,

My blog is under construction, so until then I'll have to use this template....

So have you ever felt that you werent good enough for anything? Oh I know that feeling too well. People are getting in university, left and right.. first Su.. then Yu kit, Louis, Steven, Amy, and now Nelson. Now, dont get me wrong, I'm happy for them, I really am.. but damn it.. I am just dumb fucked nervous now. I cant help but ask myself questions. Stupid questions like:
'What if I dont make it?'
'What if I dont make it to Western!?'
'What if I fail a test.. and that just fucks up my midterm'

And I constantly remind myself that its not a race, but when everyone else is moving on, and you're just stuck behind.. it just makes me pretty damn edgey. It's all I can think about about.. So what should I do... any advice?.. Even a Dr. needs a Dr. once in a while =(

(shortest blog eva)

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