Fucking bitch...

Dr.Mah,

Faye's BBQ was yesterday, I typed a whole blog for it.. but my comp froze...so.. I'll pust post a bunch a pics inside ^^ : (Some pics of the gang, the gift we got Faye that we made ourself, the dog, and Yukit touching the dog in a very sexual way)







Today was a wicked day. We had a VERY EARLY meeting at around 9:30, so of course I showed up at around 10. We talked about stuff.. *looks around*. And yea... After the meeting Nat,Bon,Rami,Yukit and I went to watch Derek's softball game. It was pretty fun, I'm naturally tired, so I yawned pretty loud in the game, and Bon kinda hit me for that...even though I didnt do it on purpose Y.Y. I made alot of good puns during the game, I was on fire. Like there was this guy with the last name 'Savage' and I said something like

OH HE'S AN ANIMAL!

and there was this, kinda fat black guy on bat and I said

He must be a heavy hitter

, quitly though, didnt want to hurt anyones feelings. Needless to say, Derek's win PWNED the other team, 13:3 or was it 17:3 i forgot. After the game we all decided to go eat some sushi at this buffet near by. Derek didnt come because he had to drive the other players home. Sushi was...it wasnt the best. But it's not about the food for me, its about the company, and we all had a wicked time.

When I got home I started watching the Family guy movie, wasnt the best, but still funny I guess. But had to stop in the middle because I was feeling really sick.. I started sweating alot and felt like throwing up. It had to be the sushi.. So I took a little nap, once I woke up Julie and I went to Pmall to get a wallet.

When I entered Pmall, within 5 mins I told Julie I wanted to go home. She asked me why and I told her it was because I didnt feel like I fit in. It felt weird for me.. and that's when you know you're white washed. So we went around looking for wallets until I stumpled upon this anime store (The same one we bought Jo's bday gift). And there I found it.. a FMA (Full metal alchemist) wallet.. It was godly.. Julie told me to look around first so after 15 more mins of walking around I got it. It's sooo wicked. for 27$ thought, but worth every penny. Its a black wallet with like white stitching on the side, and in the middle is a silver plaque with this symbol on it:

You're a nerd when you buy something like this... even Nat called me and Nerd.. and you KNOW thats when you're a nerd...*sigh*
But something else caught my eye.. THE FMA POCKET WATCH!!!! I WANT IT I WANT IT I WANT IT..too bad I was in a rush... hmm my Bday is coming up *wink*


Damn right bitch, got the New HD CD: w00t w00t:


Fuck, theres only 1 week left with my fav. people in the world. Tuesday: 2nd Lunch Gang dinner. Wed/Thursday: Grace Gang/Shawn feat Inuyasha Cat's Final Night

Just got this pic so I had to post it up, I call it "Two Gangsta Nerds That Just Woke Up For A Ball Game"




"Screaming Infidelities"

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast
Is taking me home

[1.]
I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.

I'm reading your note over again
There's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."

[2.]
Well As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere with anyone
Making out.

I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending.

[1.]
I am alone
In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have speak, and
This bottle of beast is taking me home.

[2.]

Your hair, it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities

...

Fuck man...I apologize...I dont know what to say...on Saturday I didnt have a way of getting to the car wash, but I guess thats no excuse...I'm sry doodles...with all my heart I'm sry...don't let the shitty turn out get you down though...I mean there was a giant ass flood the day before...act of God really...

...I feel like such a jerk man, I apologize...and I did miss you online...the Cats just aren't the Cats without Butters...

Sry again man...

- Shawnathan

Again I Go Unnoticed

Dr.Mah,
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Before I begin, I would like to thank Nelly, Nis, Andrea, and Andrew for offering me their blogs to advertise my car wash. And thank Charlotte for making the poster. Thanks kids, I owe you all one.
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'Again I Go Unnoticed' a song by Dashboard confessionals, and a feeling I've been feeling for some time now. I dont really know how to describe this feeling,it's a feeling of not being appreciated for all that you've done, and it seems like everything you've tried so hard to accomplish is a lost cause. I guess the best example that most people would understand would be when you like someone. And you would do anything for someone but in the end finding out that they like someone else and it seems like they were just using you. Thankfully I havent felt that for a long time, but you know that I mean.

So what has caused me to feel this way? Well mainly the Carwash that I was running really. I was running this charity carwash and I didnt make much money, didnt even make 100$...which I'm pretty pissed about. But people had their excuses, I mean, it did flood the day before, but none of my friends came and support me and my car wash. I try my best to come and see everyones show,tournament and give my support, but I didnt see a familiar face in sight when I needed it. But it's just been a long couple of days and just wanted to get this off my back. When I talk about shows and tournaments I'm not trying to point fingers at Shawn and Jamil, these are just examples I'm trying to give out to people. But again this was just something I had to get off my back, I'm sure this feeling would shrug off soon. But it's not that bad...Shawn missed me =P, atleast someone did


These past days have been an eventful one. I had accomplish much during this summer, and it has been one of the best summers I can ever remember. I got my g2 for those who care, and something AMAZING happened in Kim possible. =P For those who watch, Wade actually left his room..amazing shit. I'm about to step out now and get Hilary's New CD "Most wanted" I'm somewhat ashamed that I didnt get it earlier but oh well. Last night I got a 20$ gift card to anything where in STC from my Manager for putting in extra shifts because people always call in sick or bail out last minute... wicked was just what I needed for the week I've been having. Not much to say, mainly because it's the morning and I'm DAMN tired....and About to step out and get HD's CD! Until then, more details of my g2 test will be provided... =

"Again I Go Unnoticed"

So quiet
another wasted night,
the television steals the conversation
exhale,
another wasted breath,
again it goes unnoticed.

Please tell me you're just feeling tired
cause if it's more than that I feel that I might break
out of touch, out of time.
Please send me anything but signals that are mixed
cause I can't read your rolling eyes
out of touch, are we out of time?

Close lipped
another goodnight kiss
is robbed of all it's passion,
your grip
another time, is slack
it leaves me feeling empty.

I'll wait until tomorrow
maybe you'll feel better then
maybe we'll be better then
so what's another day
when I can't bear these nights of thoughts
of going on without you
this mood of yours is temporary
it seems worth the wait
to see your smile again
out of the corner of my eye
won't be the only way you're looking at me then.